Why Am I Here?
Why Am I Here?
I am writing on my laptop in San Teodoro, North Sardinia, as I am travelling around the island. I keep holding an intention to be guided to places, people and circumstance that are in line with my overall vision. Here is where I am supposed to be at this point in time, for reasons that I will discover along the way.
Like I do every morning after a wake up, I started my day with a meditation to manifest the day ahead and then left my house asking to be guided during the day, to a place in town where I would write this week’s newsletter. I asked this place to be energetically suitable for this work.
I walked around the town, which at this time of the year is almost like a ghost town. I eventually ended up in this lovely café in the centre of the town, nice and quite, under the sun and with a wi-fi connection. Could not really ask for a better place.
I sat down, connected my laptop and asked “Why Am I here?”. I realised the importance of this question.
Each of us can ask the same question, Why Am I Here on this Earth, in this place at this point in time? Who Am I? Surely this a question that we should be asking ourselves on a daily basis, but somehow many of us avoid asking this question, maybe because we are not prepared for the anwer. We chose to live busy lives, trying to fit in each day as much as we can so that we are not left in the silence facing our own fears, our own questions.
I started reflecting on this question. The answer came only a few minutes after. I know that the Universe communicates with us through symbols, so I started looking for clues.
I started chatting with the manager of the café, then the owner of another shop came and said that he was there to fix the wine barrel. He had a hammer and started hitting the metal rings that are placed around the wooden barrel.
I immediately knew that this had some sort of significance, I heard a gentle voice saying“Pay attention”.
As this man was working with the barrel, I had a sense of knowing, that this meant “a man working on himself” . We often say “I need to work on myself”, although we do not really know what that means. According to our personal beliefs and internal filters, the term “work” brings to the surface painful memories, traumas, wounds that we need to remember, understand and heal in order to finally release them and move on in life. Most of the times, work equals to something that requires lots of effort and often pain.
I had a clear image of the metal rings being our own personal boundaries. When we talk about boundaries, many people often refer to the boundaries we must put in place to keep people away, almost as if it was a tool that allow us to protect ourselves from people. Of course, having strong healthy boundaries in place benefit both ourselves and people in our life.
However, the image I received had more to do with the boundaries that we have with ourselves to keep us together.
The wine inside the barrel is our essence/consciousness, that requires an appropriate repository-barrel (soul). We know the importance of being able to say ‘Yes/No’ to others, and we often refer to this as important boundaries that we need to have in place with people, so that people can value us and in return, we feel valued by people.
However, are we strong enough when it comes to say ‘yes’ or ‘no’ to ourselves?
Are we able to say ‘No’ to ourselves when we are about to eat something that is bad for us, or taking in information that has the potential to upset us on all levels?
Are we able to say “No” to our mind and say “Yes” to our heart?
Are we able to be patient with ourselves, or grateful for the small successes we have in our lives?
Can we trust our judgement? Can we refrain from criticising ourselves?
These are some of the ways we can have healthy boundaries in place with ourselves. If we are not able to be persistent, disciplined, to put trust in our intuition, to be loving and caring for ourselves, we cannot keep a healthy barrel for our wine.
Lacking personal boundaries means not being able to keep ourselves together, which leads to energy/spiritual leakage.
I had this confirmed when I googled “wine barrel metal rings”:
“Wine and whiskey barrels are usually made of oak, which has to be dried (either by air or in a kiln) to a low moisture content (usually 10-12 percent) before it can be shaped. The individual pieces that are split and/or sawn to form a barrel are called staves. These are assembled by the barrel-maker, or cooper, around metal rings called hoops, and then bent over a fire or by steam. More hoops are added to form the basic barrel shape. The barrel is then placed over a fire to “toast” the oak inside—from a light toast for some wine barrels to a heavy char for whiskey barrels. (Sometimes the heads are toasted as well.) This adds additional flavors to whatever liquid is put into the barrel. Then the heads of the barrel are forced into the groove, or croze, at each end of the barrel, and hoops are tightened. Traditional barrels are made without nails or glue; wooden pegs are used to hold the cants, or sections of the head, together. Otherwise, they remain tight only from the pressure of the liquid inside. Without sufficient swelling of the wood, barrels will come apart. Because wood can’t be sterilized like stainless steel tanks, aerobic bacteria can make barrels go sour if they are not kept full..”
When I read the description above, suddenly these words drew my attention:
– Hoops (metal rings) are bent over fire, which is also used to to “toast” the oak inside the barrel. This adds additional flavours to whatever liquid is put into the barrel.
In other words: the elements of FIRE is used to shape our personal boundaries, that keep our soul together, protecting our energy/consciousness from leaking and being wasted. Once we are able to keep healthy boundaries with ourselves, our own essence can mature like a good wine, and the taste of our own essence is enriched by the soul that has been treated with fire.
– “ …. Cants …. remain tight only from the pressure of the liquid inside. Without sufficient swelling of the wood, barrels will come apart.
In other words: the heads at each end of the barrel represent Heaven and Earth, and the whole system is kept together by a sufficient swelling of the soul, that is resulting from the constant pressure we place on ourselves (through daily practice and presence) of our own essence/consciousness. We can do this by constantly connecting and working with Spirit (top = Heaven) and bottom head (Earth energy) as we are bridges between God/Spirit/Infinite Consciousness and Earth.
This understanding came very quickly, in a split second, it was not the result of a long meditation or reflection. This is how the Universe communicates with each of us, we download information, we process it, and overtime we bring it to our conscious mind, where we use our mind to make sense of it.
The download happens very quickly; the processing and understanding is proportionate to our level of consciousness, it is affected by our own willingness to let the information through, by working on our filters, conditioning, beliefs.
The True Vine
In the piazza where I was sitting is the church of San Teodoro. I was compelled to visit this church. While inside, I was drawn to read and take a picture of this painting.
The text at the top of the painting says:
“You did not choose Me, but I chose you and appointed you that you should go and bear fruit, and that your fruit should remain, that whatever you ask the Father in My name He may give you” – John 15:16.
I therefore googled Chapter 15:
The True Vine
15 “I am the true vine, and My Father is the vinedresser. 2 Every branch in Me that does not bear fruit He [a]takes away; and every branch that bears fruit He prunes, that it may bear more fruit. 3 You are already clean because of the word which I have spoken to you. 4 Abide in Me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit of itself, unless it abides in the vine, neither can you, unless you abide in Me.
5 “I am the vine, you are the branches. He who abides in Me, and I in him, bears much fruit; for without Me you can do nothing. 6 If anyone does not abide in Me, he is cast out as a branch and is withered; and they gather them and throw them into the fire, and they are burned. 7 If you abide in Me, and My words abide in you, you[b] will ask what you desire, and it shall be done for you. 8 By this My Father is glorified, that you bear much fruit; so you will be My disciples.
Love and Joy Perfected
9 “As the Father loved Me, I also have loved you; abide in My love. 10 If you keep My commandments, you will abide in My love, just as I have kept My Father’s commandments and abide in His love.
11 “These things I have spoken to you, that My joy may remain in you, and that your joy may be full. 12 This is My commandment, that you love one another as I have loved you. 13 Greater love has no one than this, than to lay down one’s life for his friends. 14 You are My friends if you do whatever I command you. 15 No longer do I call you servants, for a servant does not know what his master is doing; but I have called you friends, for all things that I heard from My Father I have made known to you. 16 You did not choose Me, but I chose you and appointed you that you should go and bear fruit, and that your fruit should remain, that whatever you ask the Father in My name He may give you. 17 These things I command you, that you love one another.
The World’s Hatred
18 “If the world hates you, you know that it hated Me before it hated you. 19 If you were of the world, the world would love its own. Yet because you are not of the world, but I chose you out of the world, therefore the world hates you. 20 Remember the word that I said to you, ‘A servant is not greater than his master.’ If they persecuted Me, they will also persecute you. If they kept My word, they will keep yours also. 21 But all these things they will do to you for My name’s sake, because they do not know Him who sent Me. 22 If I had not come and spoken to them, they would have no sin, but now they have no excuse for their sin. 23 He who hates Me hates My Father also. 24 If I had not done among them the works which no one else did, they would have no sin; but now they have seen and also hated both Me and My Father. 25 But this happened that the word might be fulfilled which is written in their law, ‘They hated Me without a cause.’
The Coming Rejection
26 “But when the [c]Helper comes, whom I shall send to you from the Father, the Spirit of truth who proceeds from the Father, He will testify of Me. 27 And you also will bear witness, because you have been with Me from the beginning.
This answered my question “Why Am I Here?”. I now need to process.
Holy Fire® Experience: Why Am I Here?
This week we will go back to the forest to the Temple of Consciousness, we will enter the room called “Born Whole“, where we will do some additional work at the time of conception and we will ask our own question “Why Am I Here?”.
We will then move to the Chamber of Divine Transformation where we will call upon the Holy Fire® energy and the energy of the Phoenix to heal and transmute.
4 October 2020 @ 6pm UK
I look forward to continue this journey together.
Giancarlo has over ten years of experience in practising and teaching Healing Arts. He is a Reiki Master Teacher of Usui/Tibetan, Holy Fire® and Karuna Reiki® systems of healing and works as a Consultant Spiritual Healer at the College of Psychic Studies in London.